I totally identify... This --> I am still the same person I used to be. I am just as smart, just as witty, just as funny as I used to be — only now I am walking around in a smaller body which is considered to be more attractive. <-- is exactly how I felt when I lost lots of weight in my mid-40s. I felt sad despite having achieved my greatest most impossible dream. Very well written. And yes, the day after is always being alert and making the right choices - something I didn't do, which brought me back to square one. For me, weigh loss is the first step in self love. Thank you for sharing.